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."165Fade to Black Scarlet BlackwellBrandon shook his head immediately."I didn't."Finn slid down in the bed so his face rested overBrandon's heart.He encircled his shoulders with both armsand lay still.* * * *Finn's restless shifting during the night wokeBrandon from a light doze.Brandon reached for him,pulled him into an embrace and held him close."Are youokay?""Yeah."He played with Finn's hair, sifting the soft, darkstrands through his fingers."It was Jordan who called methat you were missing." He waited."Jordan had some trouble.He came back here withme because& well, I was lonely and wanted to talk."How come Finn didn't often talk to him but wouldtalk to Jordan Davies no problem? Brandon bit back thebitter question.Finn talked to him plenty, just not about thepast when he could help it."What trouble?" Brandon asked.Finn sighed."He and Zakes& they got intimate inthe trees near the lake.""What? Zakes? Christ, that kid wasn't even in town166Fade to Black Scarlet Blackwella day.""I know.He was a fast mover." Finn said.Heglanced up at Brandon.There was a heartbeat's silence astheir bodies stilled and their gazes held in the dark.Brandon read the same thing in Finn's eyes as in hisown mind.Zakes and Finn in the movie.Finn remembered,maybe Zakes had told him.He waited for Brandon to saysomething.He'd be waiting a long time because Brandonwasn't going to dredge up ancient history.Not now.He trailed fingertips over the smooth curve of Finn'sback and felt his partner shiver."Poor Zakes," he said,because despite everything, he felt sorry for the porn star.He was a boy who had lost his way in the world before heeven became a man.Brandon had saved his life on the setof the snuff movie only for Zakes to go and lose it anyway."Yeah," Finn said and his voice broke just thetiniest bit.He eased himself deeper into Brandon's arms.They lay there in silence, just holding each other,listening to the wind soughing through the trees andBrandon felt peace at last.* * * *Finn could allow the events of yesterday to ruin hisalready difficult sex life or he could be philosophical about167Fade to Black Scarlet Blackwellit.His crazed captor had wanted Finn's body because it wasso desirable.Finn already knew how desirable he was, itwas just that no one had appreciated him in the right wayuntil Brandon.Finn wanted to make sure Brandon carried onappreciating him.He wanted Brandon to be the one to leadhim out of the dark, to guide him to the place he'd alwayswanted to be, where his lover would be his equal partner,where sex was a strong, necessary part of their relationship.He didn't know if Brandon was asleep, but he easedhis partner onto his back anyway, lay half over him, onethigh between Brandon's.Brandon murmured a little asFinn sought his neck, gave a few teasing kisses before heslid down Brandon's muscular body, letting his lips lead theway.Finn had no idea why his sex drive was still strongbut he didn't question it.He wanted to do all the things withBrandon they had yet to do handcuffs, toys, publicoutdoor sex, swinging from the goddamn chandelier.Hewanted all of it and more, and no longer would Dominicgoddamn Bateman and his ilk stop Finn from taking whathe wanted from Brandon.Brandon caught his breath as Finn's tongue lickedover the head of his stiffening cock.His tender handsmoved over Finn's shoulders and head and Finn knew that168Fade to Black Scarlet Blackwellno matter what, he and Brandon were meant to be.Thatexperiencing all Dominic dished out had been a necessaryevil on the road to Brandon.Brandon gasped as Finn sucked him down."Areyou sure?" he moaned but Finn ignored him, mouth full andeager to please.He weighed Brandon's sac, fondling,fingers stroking behind, touching the sensitive skin thatmade Brandon shiver.Brandon squirmed, spreading his legs, his cockswelling ever harder in Finn's mouth."Finn," he said with staying hands on Finn'sshoulders, lifting the covers to look down.Finn lifted his gaze."I'm sure.Why would I not besure about showing my love for the man I um, love?"Brandon smiled.He stroked Finn's head."You're aremarkable man, Finn Austen.I don't know if I evermentioned that to you.""Coming from the most remarkable man I ever met,that's quite a compliment," Finn said.Silence fell for the longest while as the two of themstared at each other through the dark.Brandon sighed softly."Come here," he said andFinn slid quickly back up his body.Their lips met in a passionate kiss, tonguesentwining, the heat building between them.Finn eased his169Fade to Black Scarlet Blackwellhips between Brandon's thighs, rocked into him, groin togroin, cocks pressed tight together.The friction was delicious, Brandon's hard cockagainst his own, slick with saliva and fluid.Finn rubbedsome more, bucking, milking them both.Brandon gave agroan into his mouth, hands grasping Finn's ass.Finn's body recognised Brandon's touchindependently of his brain.He writhed as Brandon'sfingertips fluttered over his entrance and he opened up andlet him in so easily, the way he'd failed to do in the past,when anxiety and history had combined to edge everycoupling with difficulty.Brandon pulled back, leaving Finn gasping.Hereached over to root in the bedside drawer, finding acondom and lube and while he was there, he flicked on thebedside lamp.Finn felt his scars bathed in a peachy glow.He satup, astride Brandon's hips, hard wood pressing tantalisinglyagainst his buttocks and let Brandon touch him.Brandon's caress was like the first time all overagain.He trailed his fingers up Finn's right arm from elbowto shoulder and across the top of his chest, following theridged meandering of the damaged skin, the trail the boilingwater had left when Dominic had got home and found outhis dinner wasn't ready.170Fade to Black Scarlet BlackwellFinn's skin both sung and stung.He felt thatmoment all over again, that white-hot pain when he'dstumbled to the sink to douse the agony and Dominic hadblocked his path, holding Finn at arms' length, preventinghim running upstairs to a cold shower too until Finn hadfallen to the floor and passed out.Brandon's fingers drew the long-dormant agonyfrom the wound.Finn looked down at himself, for amoment almost expecting the scar to vanish underBrandon's healing touch.Brandon smiled gently at him and Finn placed ahand over his, letting Brandon lead him down his arm andup again, over his chest so he felt his own scar, learnedevery inch, was no longer afraid to touch it and see theburned skin the way he had been for so long.It was only amemory now.Something ignorant people would stare at inthe street, sure, but a memory nonetheless.And a reminderthat Finn had survived against all odds and he would carryon surviving.Tears welled and streaked his cheeks, drippingdown onto Brandon's naked chest.He remembered that firstkiss, in the house on the other side of the lake, the housewhere Eden Gray had shot and killed the previous sheriff'sbest friend and a lifetime of hurt and anger had come to anend.Finn had got a hint of the light waiting for him on the171Fade to Black Scarlet Blackwellother side of despair when Brandon had kissed him, pickedhim up, held him against the wall, while his mouth toldFinn everything he needed to know.He gripped Brandon's stroking hand more tightly."Ilove you," he said.Brandon nodded slowly.He ripped a condom openwith his teeth [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]